Loosing it.

Ok so after waiting at DIA for 5 hours because of a broken plane part I was switched to a United flight to La Guardia.  I of course made sure that my baggage was sure to follow....it did not.  That's ok.  But after 24 hours and still not getting my pack I totally lost it.  Ironically everytime I called the United bag track number I was routed to a call center in...you guessed it! INDIA.  Sweet people.  Doing the best they can with only the information on their computer screens staring then in the face.  After I called Inida 12 times I broke down.  I realized that it was just stuff and my big-o ego was hurting becuase of it.  So then I started to beat myself up over not puting my yoga into practice in the situation.  As the tears siezed, my breath returned to somewhat normal and the color returned to my face the truth came out, I was/am scared.  Yoga school was hard work the last time I went.  And here I am going back to do it again with more intensity.  The idea of struggling the way I did in Mexico is unsettling.  Learning to sit in meditation for hours a day for a month is a daunting task indeed.  The way it works is that once the body begins to relax the mind starts to whirl.  Eventually the mind will slow and the relaxed body will all of the sudden begin to have somatic relase.  This is where trauma, big or small, whether you're aware of it or not releases from the body.  Most of the time these are sensations that are stored cellularly.  So all of the sudden you become overwhelmed with fear, addness, ager, whaterever.  It is seriously not cool.  So then if you want to grow you must then sit with the demons and feel them all out.  FUN FUN FUN.  So I guess I'm a little scared of the process. Who wouldn't be? Right?

The bag finally came on Monday.  Finally I started to relax a bit.
 Briee arrived yesterday and we repacked our packs and headed out for some Cuban cusine.  Que Rico!  Then we braved the cold rain and took some beautiful pictures of Time Square.  We are leaving today at 3PM to get the the airport 2 hours before out 7PM flight.  It only a 19 hour flight.  Not too bad.  UHG. yeah right!  But the adventure begins!  The bag has already been lost once so it wont happen again!  (fingers crossed)